🧠 A Story of Inner Healing from the Streets to the Work Desk
After finishing my master’s degree with an A grade, most people thought I had made it. But deep inside, I was still carrying emotional weight — uncontrolled anger, confusion, and the scars of judgment I’d lived with for years.
When I entered the IT job world, I expected professionalism. But again, some people looked at me the same way society always had — with judgment, irritation, and assumptions.
Even people in my own home said:
“If you keep reacting like this, how will you succeed in life?”
That line hit me hard. But this time… I didn’t react. I listened.
🔥 The Battle Wasn’t Outside Anymore — It Was Inside My Mind
I come from a middle-class family. We don’t spend on therapy, or yoga studios, or expensive gyms. I didn’t have access to anything except one thing:
My willpower to grow.
So I decided to train my mind — right from my home.
🧘♂️ Home Became My Healing Ground
I didn’t go to yoga classes or subscribe to fancy apps.
I started by doing:
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Simple morning stretches
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Evening home workouts
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Slow breathing practices
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And most importantly: observing my thoughts like a mirror
I began reading and watching inspirational content. Authors, speakers, social media voices who taught me about:
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Emotional intelligence
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Ego vs truth
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How anger is a message, not a monster
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Why peace is a daily choice, not a place
🧍♂️ Understanding Others Helped Me Understand Myself
One day I saw a blind man begging near a temple, and it broke something inside me.
I started noticing others more than myself.
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A woman selling snacks in buses, smiling despite the struggle
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An elderly man carrying buckets, doing daily jobs to survive
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Children working at small shops, trying to study at night
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Physically challenged people navigating traffic, heat, and hunger
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People worse off than me… and yet they were still humble, not angry
I asked myself:
“If they can smile through pain… can I learn to handle mine without breaking others?”
That question changed my direction.
📖 I Became a Student of Life, Not Just Code
Even as I prepared for my IT career, I became deeply curious about:
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Human emotions
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Why people suffer silently
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How society misunderstands silent people
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Why anger shows up when we’re unheard
I would go on social media, see people venting through statuses — anger, heartbreak, silence — and instead of judging, I felt it. I began asking my teammates if they were okay, helping them if they were low.
Slowly, I was transforming from a boy who fought with fists to a man who listens with heart.
🔁 My Formula for Peace as a Middle-Class Warrior:
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Don’t borrow money for peace — start with self-discipline
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Don’t expect silence from society — build your own calm inside
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Don’t escape from anger — study it
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Don’t wait for yoga studios — your home is enough
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Don’t suppress emotions — learn their language
💬 Final Words to Anyone Like Me:
If you’ve ever been told,
“You’re too angry, you’ll never make it.”
I want to say:
“Maybe you’re not angry. Maybe you’re just tired of pretending everything’s okay.”
Learn to listen to yourself.
You don’t need perfect conditions to begin. You just need the decision.
I made mine.
And that’s how I rewired my life — from rage… to reflection.
📍 Published on ZaiyenDiary — A Voice for the Misunderstood.
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